Sunday, March 14, 2010

Dear Tinker,

My sweet little snugglebug. Tonight, at 10:15 you woke up and were crying hard in your crib. Most of the time when you do this, I watch you on the monitor for a few minutes to see if you'll find your binky and go back to sleep. But tonight I worried that you were hungry and so went in to calm you myself. I picked you up and took you to the rocker where you snuggled down into the crevices of my body. You didn't wear socks tonight so I played with your toes while you drank from your cup for a minute. You weren't interested in eating. Just snuggling. That was fine with me.

You're a busy little girl. From sun-up 'til bedtime you're discovering, exploring, running, searching, and climbing. I rarely get you snuggling let alone absolutely still for even a moment. But tonight, I held you with both arms wrapped around your chubby little body and my nose buried in your fuzzy bald head. I didn't look up at the clock. I didn't think about putting you back in your crib. I just held you and rocked and nuzzle your sweet smell for about 20 minutes. And you fell asleep in my arms. I held you for a few minutes more knowing that tomorrow I'll wake up and you'll be two, then three then 15. I can barely remember you as a tiny baby.

I'm grateful for these moments of clarity that the Lord gives me; these times when I can fully take advantage of the benefits of being a mother. There are good times, laced with lots of hard times but you, little girl are one of two suns that my heart revolves around. I will never forget how your little body felt in my arms tonight.

Your Mamamamamamama

6 backward glances:

Kimmie said...

that made me cry....and think how lucky we are to be moms and I am so greatful for that! Thanks Amy for that reminder..Love ya!

Aislinn said...

What a sweet thought, and post to your cute little girl! Sometimes we do forget those tender moments and now you've captured one of yours!

Christy said...

That was such a sweet tribute to your little girl and to Motherhood. Those are precious moments indeed. You'll be thankful that you took the time to jot down your thought and feelings to read them later.

Lesley said...

Loved this post :) Made me pick mine up and give her extra snuggles tonight too!

Katie said...

I can relate to this- I have been trying to enjoy every little moment with my kids lately- I feel like I see them growing right before my eyes- SAD! Who will I snuggle with in 10 years? My mom says that is why grandchildren are so wonderful.

Rachel said...

so sweet. Post some pics of her... please... for me.