Why Is It So Hard?

It seems like no matter what phase of life I'm in, I go from one event/crisis/project to the next always working on them in what seems to be the last minute. Just like this blessing this past weekend. I really knew about it for the longest time but all of the details crept up on me in the last week and it was hellacious!

That done, I thought I'd have a week or two to just relax and soak up the fact that the blessing thing was done and I had nothing more than routine stuff to do. Do my daily tasks each day and then have the rest of each day to do any number of projects I've been wanting to get to: making ribbons/flowers for the girls' hair, genealogy, detailed de-cluttering, blogging, organizing closets, making pajamas, canning, whatever...

But alas, no.....I completely forgot about The Marshmallow's and Bug's birthdays coming up in just a few days. The Marshmallow turns 40 on the 21st and has requested a bash. Hmmm - I'm sort of running short on time for this one. I'm going to have to think fast. Fortunately I've already sort of been planning Bug's party at the end of the month. She turns 5 and wants a pool party at the rec center. I've already ordered and received most of her party stuff but I haven't shopped for either of their presents, and forget details like cakes and stuff like that!

When I was in grad school, life was even busier than it is now of course. I had to plan way in advance for anything and I seriously was the master time manager - ask anyone. I had a reputation for it. I used a calendar and a PDA (like a palm pilot) and had every single minute of my day planned out for months in advance. People used to complain that it was harder to get time with me than it was the President. I was booked solid but so organized! Where is that me now?

I want to get ahead of things. I want to be planning the 4th of July festivities right now so that they don't creep up on me. I want to have Halloween costumes done and ready by the end of the summer. I hate things going to the last minute; it's just so not my style...except since I've had children. I'm afraid my reputation is lost. Maybe if I get super busy again like I used to be, I'll get super organized again. I know my organizational skills increase incrementally with how busy I am.

Meanwhile, I have a few last minute parties to plan...