Tuesday, October 28, 2008


I just can't get over it. I just don't remember feeling like this day after day when I was pregnant with Natalie. It's so weird.

Not a second goes by, especially after noon, when I am not irritable, short, impatient and intolerant, and don't think for a minute that I don't let my family know I'm on one - THEY KNOW. It's mainly the incessant chatter of my 4-year old that makes me want to rip my hair out and cram it down her throat. But even my incredibly patient and long-suffering husband drives me insane half the time, and he's the one who gladly tries to take my burdens when he walks through the door.

I pray nightly for more patience, to feel better so that I'm not so snappish so I'd hate to see what I'd be like without the blessings I'm undoubtedly receiving for doing what the Lord wants me to do (yeah, I really wanted to do it too, but it's a lot because I knew he wanted me to have another child). I'm too selfish to voluntarily do really hard things without a little protest.

The Marshmallow would tease me that my last pregnancy was hard on him - well by the time this is over, he will absolutely be a saint for putting up with my grumpy personality for the next 3 1/2 months.

3 backward glances:

Christy said...

OOOO! Love the smurf. Hang in there! Put some soothing music on and see if that helps. Just play it all day in the background.

Heidi Sue said...

I am sorry. Pregancy makes our bodies act weird. I hope that soon things will be well for you. It is hard for me to picture you not patient. You always have such a mellow attitude. I will keep you in my prayers. Love ya

Rachel said...

Everyone get irritated. Being prego must enhances it by oh 1,000 percent. Indulge yourself a little. And try to focus on the very cool things about that little one growing inside you. There have been a couple of days lately that I just lie down and feel her move inside. I know its the last time I will feel this incredible feeling of a baby and I'm trying to take it in. Don't let the emotional roller coaster take you from the miracle :) (But I have to admit, I am counting down a little, 6 weeks and counting for me)